Yeap definitely one of those days today.
I just want to scream and let everything out
Photo 3: UCLA Campus
18 But God shows his anger from heaven against all sinful, wicked people who push the truth away from themselves. 19 For the truth about God is known to them instinctively. God has put this knowledge in their hearts. 20 From the time the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky and all that God made. They can clearly see his invisible qualities — his eternal power and divine nature. So they have no excuse whatsoever for not knowing God. 21 Yes, they knew God, but they wouldn’t worship him as God or even give him thanks. And they began to think up foolish ideas of what God was like. The result was that their minds became dark and confused. 22 Claiming to be wise, they became utter fools instead. 23 And instead of worshiping the glorious, ever-living God, they worshiped idols made to look like mere people, or birds and animals and snakes. 24 So God let them go ahead and do whatever shameful things their hearts desired. As a result, they did vile and degrading things with each other’s bodies. 25 Instead of believing what they knew was the truth about God, they deliberately chose to believe lies. So they worshiped the things God made but not the Creator himself, who is to be praised forever. Amen.
Worship the true Creator of all things in this world. That mysterious beauty we tend to gaze and find awe upon, we replace with cheap, worthless things of this world like money, lust, shiny things, popularity. BE SOBER-MINDED. BE ALERT. Know that the God’s eternal power and glory is shown everywhere through His various creations. From the full power and glory of the mountains crafted by the hands of God to the smallest, most detailed processes of how microorganisms work. All praise and exaltation to our Gd the ultimate Creator!
Forgive me God for being so earthly-minded. I feel like I tend to do this because I’m just too afraid to encounter the amount of power and glory that is held within you. To experience your power, your justice, your holiness would be like an ant being crushed by the immense force of what seems to be a regular footstep of a human being. Father, but I don’t want to suppress these truths and try to find pleasure and comfort in something so pity made by the hands of man. I find delight in your perfect Holiness, your eternal power and glory, your true Justice. Because it is through these aspects of you that true love is found. It is THAT love I chase for. It is THAT love that I desire to be with. And so God, I thank you for your Son and your reckless love, a love that goes beyond your very being of true justice so that we could be with you. For with just myself, I would never be able to enter the gates of Zion to be with you. I would be crushed by your wrath into the depths of hell. Thank you Jesus. Thank you for your voluntary act of mercy. Help me to have an open mind and heart to seeing your glory here on earth and worshiping the TRUE God that deserves all praise. Let me constantly be in this posture before the cross. A posture of humility.
I think it went well?
The past few weeks of DT have been centered around the theme of the human condition and Your Holy Standard.
And I’m starting to realize more and more the difficulty of living the life you have called us to live. The Christian life. To be a holy people set apart from the world.
1 Peter 1:15-16
2 Timothy 3:1-5
But with the sin that resides in my heart and will forever be struggling with until the end of my earthly life…. sometimes I just want to give up.Sometimes I just really want to give up life, feeling like I’ll never be able to reach the standard you want me to live because of the sin that lives in me. God, I really hate Satan. That he would put this barrier in front of me as I live here on earth.
Yet it’s during these times of utter humility and hopelessness that I’m reminded to totally depend on your Righteousness, your Justice, Your Son, the cross that I hope I can be saved. God, I pray that you would please give me the strength to get back up on my feet even through the many times I fail you. Many times I just want to stay lying on the ground, in my mourning. I’m sorry that can’t live as holy as you want me to, I’m sorry I can’t live as perfect as you want me to. Your standards are the holiest of holies, and what am I, a mere human being, to be able to say that I can be holy before you.
God, please help me to get back up from my knees and hold on tightly to the cross. It’s only the blood of Jesus Christ. It’s only the blood of Jesus Christ. ONLY YOUR BLOOD YAHWEH that I can come to find myself clean before you. ONLY you God. Please heal this sickness. I stand before you in humility and total dependence in you. Clothe and embrace me with the robes of Jesus Christ that I may feel comforted in this hopeless state of a dying body. Restore my heart Lord and let Your Words be a source of comfort. Spirit. Surround. Fill. Fall Afresh. Embrace. Awaken. Fan. Pour. Overwhelm. Overcome. Empower.
I beg before you Lord.
Your presence is all I’m longing for here in the secret place
Your nearness is all I’m waiting for here in the quiet place
Here in the secret place
My soul waits for you alone
Just like the watchmen wait for dawn
Here I’ve finally found the place
Where we’ll meet, Lord, face to face
I’ve finally found where I belong
I’ve finally found where I belong, in your presence
I’ve finally found where I belong, Lord
To be with you, to be with you
I am my Beloved’s and He is mine
So come into your garden and take delight in me
Take delight in me
Delight in me, delight in me
Delight in me, delight in me
Here in Your presence, God, I find my rest
Here in Your presence, God
- Cory Asbury, Where I Belong
…. starting tmrw